Today I want to talk about things that I keep revisiting, things I dealt with during my mental rehab. I want to share things that others are trying to work through in their trials.

This took place about 14 weeks post accident. I was doing great! (so I thought). I was scheduled to see a Neuropsychologist for an evaluation. Not sure why I’m going there or if I really need to be going, because I’m doing great! I mean I’m back walking and moving well! We met, I answered questions, filled out forms with questions about my thoughts and how my memory is, then I was told I had to do testing, like 7 hours of testing. I swallowed hard and got it scheduled. My daughters came and sat with my spouse and away I went…

I follow the receptionist down the hallway, starting to get a bit nervous, my family has always been right by my side through this all, now I’m doing this alone. Got to the room and sat down with a young lady who will be doing the testing. Timed worksheets, listening to stories on computer, matching shapes and colors and lots of other things for 3 hours. Now it is time to go to lunch! Found my darlins, smiled, and we went and found good food! Answered questions and questions and a few more, then I suggested maybe we could leave. They took me back and I headed to my room again and testing restarted. The first thing I had to do was name words that started with the letter she gave me for 15 seconds…the first letter was A, deep breath and thinking this won’t be so hard…I thought and thought and thought, only word that came to mind was ass, but I couldn’t say that, that was rude! I think I only thought of 3 words, and other letters weren’t much better. Three and half hours later, I finished. Got outside walking to our car and here come my tears. This was the very first time I found out or realized ,just how injured I was, still was!

It took me a couple years of thinking about that, that I figured out how very important that was. I thought I was fine! For those of you going through this feeling, it is devastating, heartbreaking, and makes you second guess yourself, will I ever be Ok? Yes you will be, take a deep breath, and know how fortunate you are to learn this. Now you get to work! This is daily work, morning, afternoon and evening. When we got together with family, my son-in-law would shout out a Letter, and me naming words got to be my favorite game.

I will write about the results and what was next the next time I write. Keep Faith, Trust yourself and those around you, and Trust the professionals taking care of yourself. I am well, and I want you to be!